| i've asked about you and they've told me things but my mind didn't change i still the feel the same
-take care by drake <3
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| i don't know whats wrong with me lately. maybe i've just been wearing my heart on my sleeve but one second i won't care about what people think the next thats all that matters. alot of people hurt me. i don't know if its because they're inconsiderate of other people, only care about themselves, heard rumors about me or just don't care. these past few weekends ill go out, be completely fine and loving life and then all of a sudden im in the corner in tears. i just feel like people think they know me. i don't even understand myself so how can they have the audacity to assume they know me when i have barely spoken to them. people either take me as this nice sweet girl with a big heart (which is fine) OR an easy, slutty, flirt with huge boobs who you can easily take advantage of when she's drunk. i mean believe me ik ive made mistakes. absolutely. but you don't know me. ive been through so much in my life that maybe i was confused. maybe before college i didn't think anything bad could really happen to me.. and when it did i didn't know how to handle it. maybe i got rlly drunk because in that state things wouldn't phase me and i wouldn't care what people said or did to me. but instead ppl took advantage of me even more. when ppl treated me like that i didn't know what to do, should i yell at them, push them, make a scene. or just walk away and be by myself which is what i did. should i not go out? because why would anybody put themselves in that position. but then im stuck in my room, by myself, with nothing to do, while literally my whole floor except the weird girl that never leaves her room except for class or to go to the lounge to make popcorn and smell up the entire hall. i don't want to have to do that. OR i can just go out and not drink, where drunk ppl who aren't my friends come up to me and stand extremely close to me while the smell of alcohol comes out of their mouth as they scream into my ear. idk boys can just be so mean to me and i don't know why. i swear im a good person. i care about other people am kind and shy. even if i go out and don't drink to much but simply have a drink in hand i have boys coming up to me and grabbing me. gross. w/e hopefully ill figure something out. this is
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*i love arguing and debating with people, i think its ok to disagree and i like having an opinion and sharing it
*i like criticizing (movies, outfits, food, people, etc), and people giving me constructive criticism because i wanna be the best me possible
*im very harsh on myself, ik my faults and probably focus on them 100x more then anyone else
*its ok to be awkward sometimes. i like not always having the perfect thing to say or knowing an exact response because it makes it more real to me.
*i wish i had enough clothes to change my outfit 4 or more times a day because i always get bored of it
*im veryy girly; but at the same time i grew up in a house full of boys and am very comfortable surrounded by guys
*i like and appreciate compliments but i hate people who are blunt and rude about it.
*im shy around people i don't really know. i will usually never initiate the conversation or go up to a guy that i don't really know. its not my style. they have to come up to me.
*i understand everyone has problems/insecurities, i do to. but by telling everyone that will listen, i think its just a way of exaggerating their story so ppl pity them and will make exceptions for them if they say or do something out of line. i understand ppl make mistakes, again i do alll the time. but don't make excuses for them own the fuck up to it
*people who are desperate kind of disgust me. needy, clingy people need to suck it up and understand that its ok to be independent sometimes.
*i smile a lot, it can sometimes be a defense mechanism because i don't want other people to know if something got to me and to give them that power.
*i love to laugh and making other people laugh sometimes even if its at my own expense because i feel like when everyones having a good time it brings everyone closer to each other.
*im a perfectionist to the extent that i deff care about how others perceive me; but i understand there's only so much i can do about it.
*people pleaser
*drama queen
LOVE: kim kardashian
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